Sometimes work can be so stressful and challenging. Especially when you start to feel that you’re not capable enough to meet those expectations. It’s a learning process everyday and a fight sometimes to stay strong. Thankfully I work with an amazing team and I’m sure they’ve been in my shoes before. Those hard days are only there to make me better. It takes time to grow and many years of practice to be great. Overall, it’s the greatest feeling leaving work & knowing you’re doing something right in life.. something you love. Continue to pray for my health and safety.
I'm CATHY! My lovely BLOG is here to share a few of my daily LOVES, TUNES, HAPPINESS, TUSSLES, & FUN with you! Welcome!
1 1/2 Months
Hi Tumblr,
I have about 1 1/2 months until I graduate. I really dont know what my next step needs to be. Oh life, you’re full of mysterys.
Good People
I come to a lot of points in my life where I start to realize things I somewhat never see or notice. & while I was on my way home from sweet old Aurora, it finally hit me, though I was aware of it & thought of it all week, that I’m so very blessed to have such good people around me.
People who willingly come out of their way to pick me up or make time in their busy lives to grab lunch or hang out. People who walk me to subway at night or host me on weekends or invite me to events and such. People who always care about my living and if I have enough of everything at home. People who check up on me to see how things are going. I mean how much more love can you feel?
I just feel very blessed to have good friends around me. Good people. & I’m so very thankful.
Hi Tumblr, I’ve missed you.
It’s been a while since i have had time to stop and blog. My poor pentax has not been touched for about more than a month and updating life here like i use too is rare. I really do miss blogging and all the wonderful things it reminded me of. That it’s the little things that make life so amazing.
Lately God really has been working in my life day by day. I’m starting to see the reasons of why things happen the way they do, if I agree with it or not. I stress on myself everyday to be reminded of this love and mercy.. Because that can be easily forgotten with the lives we live. To constantly trust him when things aren’t smooth sailing. It becomes a different story when you stop saying you trust him & actually doing it. It was a day or two before rent was due and I was still short on making ends meet. I kept saying God I trust you & I know that you will provide in my times of need. But as I kept thinking and believing these words.. I wondered why I was still so worried and still pondering about the situition. Maybe I wasn’t trusting God.. Maybe it was just words slipping through my mouth. Long story short, so I prayed about it and suddenly this burden was lifted off my shoulders.. & I could feel that I was finally trusting him. Later that night he answered.
I have also been given the chance to step into a couple churches this past month. All so very different from one another but prasing the same God. It’s so amazing! There really isn’t any other way I can describe this whole ball of wonderfulness. It really opens my eyes to who God’s people are.. & it moves me
MOVING
Finally! :) I will be leaving in about THREE hours. I’m so excited for this new chapter.. [I can not sleep, but later will regret] but I do miss my family and friends already. :(
I finished packing my life away this afternoon and seeing 70% of my things in boxes is kind of weird. Makes me sad having to leave so much behind.. but I know there are bigger things for me in this life of mines and that God has greater plans. So for now.. I guess giving up this comfortable lifestyle is something I need to let go of to get to the greater plans and bigger things.
I’ll miss my family a lot though. They really make home.. cozy & warm.
Wish me luck, pray for me, & let’s go for it! I’m also meeting my randomly picked roomies today! Yay! So hopefully that goes well.
*Though my eyes are closed due to a poor photographer’s instructions & the rush of the moment, being surrounded by these kids each Sunday was something wonderful for me this year.
This shall be my last post for a while. I’ll keep you update as much as I can!
The List
My mind is always moving and thinking now in days… overflowing with lots of files needing to be address. Hear me out please…
1. I really do have the most amazing girls… ever. They make leaving Michigan that much harder. Gasp* I almost cried today saying good bye.:( Thanks for buying me such useful things that really were on my need to get list. I’m loving the detergent and band aids. :) I’ll miss you gals.
2. Oh my goodness, I’m leaving in less than 24 hours! After readjusting my luggage over 4 times and maybe one more time tomorrow.. I’ll be set to go. I really did wish I had a magic bag today.. but sacrificing a few sweaters and bottoms made things pretty possible to fit.
3. Please pray for safe traveling because I really do think I have “ROB ME” written all over myself. It’s super scary leaving home alone. ALONE! & being this tiny doing so.
4. I am thrilled about school & meeting my two random roommates. Nervous.. but thrilled.
5. I have to drink all the chocolate milk I can before leaving.. & eat one more pickle. haha
Good Night Loves! LOVE Wednesday & live it well.
Dear Thrusday Morning
Since I don’t really plan on coming back home in five months.. I’m packing my life away for now. I don’t really know where to begin in my small space downstairs.. or what to pack anymore. But I am so ready to hit the train and leave to Chicago. I’m excited for change & ready for school start.
I’m also very happy that I wasn’t able to attend school in August like I planned. & to think of it… it’s very understandable. If I did go then, I would of never had the chance to grow in myself or babysit Madden for three months. I would of never started reading my bible again or eat all that bad food with my family [in a GREAT way]. You know? God had greater plans for me & I really didn’t see that at the time.. but to think of it, I can see it now. I can understand that when my plans fail to come through… God has greater things lay out for me. & that it is okay when things don’t work out.
:) Have a wonderful TUESDAY you guys! *For Christmas I got money.. to save for rent.. yay! I went out to eat dinner with a few of my siblings and my sister & her husband. & I ate that wonderfully yummy pork, egg, rice thing at the vietnamese restaurant. yum! & I watched my siblings play LIFE & UNO as I decorated my sister’s SIM’s house. haha, FUN! Christmas was lovely… & really the best. SIMPLY celebrated with family.
TIME to go pack.
:) For the LOVE of Life
I’ve come to peace with the things I can not change. & even when I feel so defeated or wronged, I remind myself that my life maybe planned by me, but it’s God who will forever determine my steps. & I’m really happy that I’m at a point of my life where everything feels like a breeze because I am able to accept this fear to fail or to be wrong.
& I’m always counting my little blessings as my Dad reminds us to. Walking into a path that can be so narrow and judgmental is a struggle all the time, but I must keep my head above the water and ears open to positive criticism.
I’m also so grateful to have such loving parents that support me in this crazy world of baking cakes. & though sometimes they might not be able to help me as much as they would of liked to financially.. I know that God knew one day I would need help at this point of my life.. so he blessed me eight amazing siblings that help me as much as they can.
God also blessed me with an amazing person along the way who really walked with me through the whole process for three years. A person who really supported me when I was unsure and pushed me to keep going all the time. But most of all, this person believed in me. He believed in my dreams. In my goals. & he knew I could do it. I really don’t think I would be here without that.
And in a week I shall be leaving.. finally. I will struggle, I will shed plenty of tears.. but I will stay strong and work hard. I’m so ready to go! :) But first, I need to go buy pepper spray, a pocket knife, and learn kung fu on YouTube. haha
3 Months
Today was Madden’s last day. I’m a bit sad, but I can’t really do much because I’m leaving soon myself. Three amazing months babysitting her really made life so much better. Her sweet caring heart, vast knowledge of nursery songs, and curious self will be missed dearly.
I don’t think she’ll miss me as much, since I can tell she already has all she needs and loves.. but in a way she really became a part of my life.
She told me today that she had to be six to go to school. She then stressed to me she was still three and just tired of turning three over and over again. Of course I corrected her and said she had only turned three once. & even at three she’s so bright and always eager to learn. So silly too! :)
